Wow the days of the week go so fast in my life..i never know what i am doing tomorrow, and never know what i did yesterday..its been an odd week..my best friends birthday celebartions ((its like a holiday for our birthdays))..i have been arguing a lot with my family, mostly just my mom..things are getting crazier and crazier by the day..why do people always feel the need to control me? my whole life has been that way..i have no car and that is the first thing my parents can take away when i dont do as they please..its always been this way..then of course the threats of being kicked out..wow do i feel 16 again..really is this starting all over again? i dont get it.. i was forced to resign from my job..a job i was obsessed with..i loved everything about, except my boss..she hated me..just because everyone else didnt..needless to say it was a dramatic weekend..im sad about my job only cuz of the people i will miss and how much i put into that place..i know God’s hand is over my life when more than one thing goes wrong in a week..i am really excited to see what God has planned for me but nervous all at the same time..i am going to start planning a missions trip for next summer with the help of a new great friend..so many things are changing in my life, its really strange..but i am very happy with the path i am taking..it will lead me home..its really hard to be your friend after everything, you ask me if i can handle it, i can and i will but it will never be just that..i can never look at you the same way..someday still exsists in my heart..but not today does too..ha ha..i have so much to learn..im really excited i want to hurry and learn everything, i have no idea about patience…its never been part of my life until now..i cant believe how my life and heart have been transformed in the last 5 months..wow 5 months..i really want to travel the world and help people..im trying to see if maybe i can follow people around to see what i want to do…im thinking full time ministry but not really sure what that means..its just the first thing i think of..and traveling those few things have been on my heart forever…i have never been born for Ohio..im exotic..still praying about it all though..pray for me..i am really happy that people are involved in my life..i love meeting with a few choice ladies and chatting away about everything suprisingly i could get used to it….its great to hear wisdom from others in situations i cant deal with sometimes…..who knows..there wasnt a point to this blog i just wanted to say somethings i guess…..yeah for me!!!!! Thank you Jesus for everything you are doing in my life and where you are taking me next, where your hand leads my heart will follow, Amen….
